Friday Prayer: Fasting From Control
Father, I thought I was trusting you, but removing my usual comforts reveals I've been trusting them more. When I can't check my phone, I panic. When I can't control the outcome, I'm anxious. When I can't fix the problem, I'm desperate. These reactions show what I've actually been depending on - and it's not you.
Forgive my functional saviors - the things I've trusted to do what only you should do. The security I find in money, the identity I derive from achievement, the comfort I get from approval, the control I demand over circumstances. I've been worshiping at altars I built instead of the altar you provided.
Use this Lenten fast to expose what's controlling me. Let the discomfort of removal teach me what I'm actually trusting in. When I reach for what's no longer there, help me reach for you instead. Prove yourself sufficient when my usual comforts aren't available. You are enough. Help me believe that when everything else is removed.
