Tuesday Prayer: Honest Before You

God, I'm tired of praying proper prayers when my heart is a mess. I'm tired of using right words to express wrong feelings, of sounding spiritual when I'm actually struggling. I don't know how to pray about this situation, and I'm done pretending I do.

So here's my honest prayer: I don't understand what you're doing. I'm angry about how this is going. I'm confused by your timing. I'm frustrated with your silence. I'm questioning whether you really hear me or care about what I'm facing. There - that's the truth. That's where I actually am, not where I think I should be.

Thank you for being big enough to handle my honesty, secure enough to receive my questions, loving enough to stay engaged while I wrestle. I don't need to clean up my prayers before I bring them to you. You see my heart anyway. You know what I need before I ask. So I'm coming broken, confused, and honest. Meet me here. Even if you don't give me answers, give me yourself. That's what I really need anyway.