Friday Prayer: I Can't Figure This Out

Father, I can't figure this out. I've analyzed from every angle, considered all possibilities, searched for patterns, and I'm still confused. Nothing makes sense. The pieces don't fit. I don't understand why you're allowing this or what you're doing or what I should do. The uncertainty is exhausting and I hate it.

Help me trust you with all my heart instead of leaning on my own understanding. My understanding has limits - I can't see what you see, know what you know, comprehend all your purposes. I might never understand this, and that's hard. But I know you. I don't comprehend your methods, but I trust your nature. You've been faithful before. You'll be faithful now.

I'm submitting my confusion to you. My questions. My need for answers. My demand that things make sense before I trust. I can't figure this out, and that's okay. I don't have to understand before I trust. My understanding is partial. Yours is complete. Make my paths straight even when I can't see how. I'm trusting you with what I don't understand.